Current Musical Selection: Tool - Sober

" i am just a worthless liar. i am just and imbecile. i will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well. i will find the center of it all. i will chew it up and bleed. "

people and their 'tudes man... what can i say. people and their fucking 'tudes.. someone throws a fit, all about their life... how everything is depressing, makes stupid comments about poking things and causing physical pain... its all a cry out for attention and help. as cold as i am, im not stone; i realize that someone probably wants to atleast talk about whats going on. so i do. i play the compassionate friend role. i open my mouth at one point, shut down. appearantly this is a case, 'woe is me, dont stop my whinning rant'. i excuse myself for the intrusion, and in the name of compassion, again, i sit and listen to everything they have to say. really listen. ask questions about what else is going on, to get a better idea of why they are so frustrated. i listen, i try to empathize with them, try to be the good person, make myself available to them and their plight... just in general trying to be a good friend for someone in need, right? doing the good thing. doing the right thing, doing the christian way of treating people; dealing with them the way id wish them to deal with me. i say one thing, then i hear "uh huh, and then you can just fuck off" then im blocked. 3 mistakes made here on my part.. 1-this isnt the first time this person has done this to me; each time tho, i do the right thing, and try to befriend them... thats my mistake 2- i guess i shouldnt care about them; you know what i know i shouldnt; anyone who is that insecure, that fickle, and that naive really has no business talking to me. the problems they are revolving around, involve shit like marriage to someone they arent even in a relationship with... in fact its all post-fact; they are done, over split, gone; and still they drive themselve insane over nothing. because thats all they have nothing. my fault: mistaking this for a genuine problem. people need to grow the fuck up, and move the fuck on. i have. 3- i listend to her. shouldnt have done that.... her mistake: thinking she gets away with shit like that; FUCK YOU. fuck your pathetic life, fuck you, fuck how you think everything is so big and right, fuck your dreams, fuck what you want. id slit your fucking throat just to shit down it, if this is how you plan on making it through life treating people. using people just to hear your fucking crap, then after all of that, someone is nice and trusting, and is trying to be a genuinely good person, and being there for you; thats how you treat them.. fuck you. when your read this MD, fuck the hell off. fuck you and your life; i dont need your shit, so get your melodramatic lies and grumblings off my porch... never, never bring that kind of shit to my doorstep every again, and treat someone like that. ever.