Current Musical Selection: Elvis - I Can't Help Falling In Love

dont ask me why... for what ever reason i dug that song out. somewhere in the halls today i heard someone play the UB40 version of the song, that was popular about 10 years ago; i decided to pull out the earliest version i knew of it... plus its the King man.

i was thinking about that the other day, sitting in class; listening to the prof's calling role; and some girl had to correct the prof, that her name changed- she got married over the summer.. scary. marriage is something, i guess conceptually i like. i think the whole ideal would work well with me. i tend not to like states of flux; id rather have everything moderately predictable. the dating trend can be rut-able enough for me to like; but not at this stage. girls arent into that. ive realized that girls would rather do whatever they please, with no restrictions, no ties, just do whatever; almost rather than having a steady, mature, adult relationship. and me, being surrounded on an island of underage, and undermatured girls; im predicting that nothings going to change in the near future either. honestly it would be a bit too self righteous and condescending of me, to expect the entire population of females around me to change, and move up to my level. i should probably just admit the allternative is true; that is i cant play down to their level. really thats what it is. not only am i exercising the restraint to attempt to play that level, i also dont think im equiped to. everything seems to be centered around the quick fix. the heroin of dating i suppose... the care-free attitude, good looks, drug/alcohol induced state, and similar drive to get the other person. i lack all of the above.

unfortunately my eyes are really tired tonight.. ill finish the thoughts on marriage tomorrow..

ain't it fun~
s.