Current Musical Selection: Dimmu Borgir - Masses For The New Messiah

well... its only been like a month since ive posted. hardly that. but something just as close. guh. i dunno why. i sit here alot. for precious few moments at a time. but im here, in my chair, starring down pixels alot. but its never often enough. just get too busy with life. applying for jobs like mad. [averaging about 1 every other day] and such. oh and work! we cant forget the fun that is work. computing taxes. thats a great joy. then i have to eat. sometimes. dont forget dumbass homework. kinda like the latin im not getting studied for tomorrow. 2nd latin exam. something like 300 lines covered i guess. i prolly know a good 100 lines pretty well. the rest. eh? ive read it once. i just hope the exam is kind to me. im kinda lacking in motivation right now. if the text came last week, id be ok. but now that the 1 month and under countdown is underway... it makes it hard to focus. kinda like how i couldnt focus on my recitation in class.... turns out mark gave me a 23/25. fucking shocking. appalling even. but appreciated. i walked around babbling latin in meter about kissing little boys for 2 weeks to get that. then i walked into class and just fucking brain farted the last 3 lines. sigh. it happens. its over with. its ONLY latin. although. im already looking ahead to when i might have money. several purchases come to mind of necessity; however.... the university sent me this shit on a trip to rome through the alumni association. as much as a dispise the alumni association, and the u. rome looks neat. very neat. almost neat enough to say ive earned it, some day when i can afford it. and in a way i hope so. after beating my self up so many years over this foreign language requirement... it would be nice to put it to work for a week.... just reading the random things all over rome. seeing everything ive read about. the places where Horace just happens to spend his days walking around [which are still around], or the guestimate location a bit farther north, where G. J. Caesar crossed the Rubicon river. or even just the rock piles that remain of the Temple of Jupiter Stator... where Cicero conveined the Senate against Cataline. it would be so fullfililng to me to see all this shit that ive spent so many nights staying up to memorize, and spell, and identify with. to see them. to stand there. to walk around them. to picture it just like all these stories say so. just to view rome. that i think is something i would really enjoy now... now that ive put myself through this.