Current Musical Selection: GnR - So Fine.

well here i am again. i suppose again is a wrong way to put it. its been something like a week since i last posted. honestly im not sure why. time has been moving pretty slowly for me, but i havent been able to be near a keyboard much to burn the hours away. instead, ive been working [last week was 31 hours], and trying to get through homework and class shit. so far im actually on task with all of the readings to be done [and ahead of schedule in one class]; other than that its just a struggle to stay up with latin. it makes me mad. i used to like the language... and on some levels i still do. but it frustrates me. we keep piling more on before some of this sets in, and definetly before im comfortable with using it. none of it is second nature yet. it still feels foreign to me. and i suppose it should. after all it is a FOREIGN language... but i would think after all this time some of it would start feeling natural. not so.

today also dug me deeper into time committments. i stopped by my soc prof's office hours just to ask about an example he cited in class... i ended up staying for nearly an hour and talking shop about lots of things. hes not such a bad guy. hes young yet [only had his phD for 5 years], but he is learning. hes pretty open on things and sounded like he really appreciated the feedback on class stuff, as well as having someone different to talk to about his research. which, is where my time committment complaint comes in. turns out my question/his example, was from a research article he is proposing and having little luck getting published. before i knew it he and i were talking about alot of the intricies involved with micro-level accomodators in social/civil rights settings. whew. i didnt know much to begin with, but i picked up alot on the fly. anywho. i now have a copy of his paper in hand [all 50 pages], and he wants me to do a review of it. so i guess ill be learning quite a bit more about that then i figured i would have. regardless it is kinda cool to know that i will be making suggestions and revisions to something thats potentially going to be published... and ethically he is required to cite my name in the article for helping him. thats cool. not that it persuaded me to do it or anything. or that id know why. im still trying to figure out how i got stuck doing this in the first place. but hes got some interesting ideas about race and social movements that just arent popular to study now days. so its kinda neat. i still dont know anything, but its still kinda neat. minus the 50 pages in length.

work is a fun thing to talk about as well. im not sure why. but it is. most of the people i work with are pretty cool. some are the laziest sacks of shit ive ever met in my life. all in all, its about all one could expect from retail. its paying my rent, so i shouldnt complain alot about them... other than im way outselling people who have years of experience on me. but no hard feelings. none at all. i just try to focus on talking through things with customers about what we have and what works for them. thats all it takes. besides, standing around talking to people all day about technology isnt too difficult. not nearly as mentally taxing as reading about social political theory, and quite a bit less involved than moving stacks of paper around. dont get me wrong. its not going to be my lifes work. but for a college job, it could be alot worse. even if you count having to clean bathrooms occasionally.

god whatelse has gone on? well the main project has been put off the back burner. ill break this, i own a magazine. originally we were looking to publish an issue at the end of august; but due to a bunch of reasons... one specifically dealing with legalities and copyrights, its been pushed back indefinetly. i dont like that. but its got to happen. as soon as i can, ill put out alot more on the pub' its self. i think its going to be cool... if some other snags can get worked out. lets see... i stopped back in dport for a night this weekend; really it was so brief that there isnt much to say about it. got there around 10:30pm, left for iowa city about 8:30pm the next night. all i really went back for was to get a few things that were left at home... still a bunch of random shit sitting around; but its empty in my room at home now. kinda scary. either way the dog likes to root around in there now, im told. thats kinda funny... she never liked it when i was there or my crap was there. just now that its an empty room she likes it. that and she has my futon to pass out on during the days.

well the only really good thing came up the other day in a conversation with a customer at work... shes a law student; and was filling me in about the entry process in to the law school here. after listening to her closely; ive surmised that i may have a chance at school here. im just not sure if im willing to take it. as it sounds id have 2 out of 3 possible avenues covered for special admission [since my gap [[ or lack there of ]] wont help me]. that was actually good to hear. not that im certain id want to go here. but i could have a chance if i really wanted to stick it out.
theres so many reasons why i shouldnt even consider this place. people is one. the town is another. the staff over there is a third. but for the price, it might be something to consider. i really cant beat instate tutition like that. my current top choice [pending lsat's] is in ohio... and its pretty reasonably priced [for law schools], but it cant compare to instate iowa dollars. something to think about i suppose. gee, as if i didnt have enough to worry about as it was.

guh. lastly is my good news... incase you all live in a fucking hole, a new GnR track was played on a New York radio show last week. it is reportedly just a bootleg of a final track... but the sound quality was supposedly studio... that AND sanctuary management [GnR's management company] converged on the show to gobble up the cd. good or bad? very good. no one would care much if it was a shitty version, or something falsely reported as GnR material... the fact that it was good quality, and they backpeddled to cover it up... [and i do mean coverup... the radio show is syndicated... but oddly enough NO STATIONS IN THE COUNTRY have received taped copies of that show now...] but finnaly after 10 years, and a failed tour. . . it looks like something might be emerging. tommy comes off tour this week, and by his words is to head back to the studio for last minute checks... very good news indeed. i think Chinese Democracy might actually happen. no idea on when; but it is coming. which is probably good. i could use a new soundtrack for my soul.