random thought.

you ever just read something on a webpage, and have it kill something inside of you? i guess its different for everyone... but stumbling across something on a webpages can just kill a mood. really fast. like if youd see a relative had died in an accident; or they were raising property tax 25% percent; or that your ex-wife remarried a son of a billionaire, who is half your age with twice your hair. something that just knocks the wind out of your proverbial sails. but it shouldnt. i dont know anymore. sometimes i guess i hold this image in my head. just a simple fantasy. thats, i guess, divergent from reality just enough to make me happy. not alot. im not a king, im not rich, im not famous. but its just something that i can close my eyes and go, "that would really make me happy now" and to flip around the web and find something that pokes a needle in the vein to burst it. sigh.