Current Musical Selection: No Doubt - Dont Speak


short entry tonight. seems of late, all hell must break loose. from 3 hour executive meetings, to just plain rediculous amounts of homework and class assignments, to the more everpresent interpersonal turmoil of people around me; nothing it seems will stay remotely sane for 10 minutes anymore. really the only good things to speak of include my selection to lecture at Drake University on saturday to the res hall student body; and that i received my absentee ballot in the mail. and yes, i did actually vote democrat on a choice or two... i do remember marking Joe Seng, who actually served quite well as my neighboring district alderman; for whatever he was running for. sorry party! the big questions tho; i went for gross and ganske. ganske/harkin was a somewhat difficult choice; although i do have alot of respect for harkin and what hes done, and he does fight for iowa interests [what ever those might be]; just that i think its time to change up some of the political make up in the land. for the same reason i voted nussle over hutchinson; anne hutchinson annoys me; she'd have been better off to stay in her secure mayor slot in bettendorf for a 4th term or whatever it would be.

other random thoughts. || homework is killing me. a group presentation, midterm, vocab quiz, plus 2 chapters worth of homework and workbook all due this week in latin; a 2 day massive presentation on minority subject matter for dir democ class; quiz and papers due in stats; paper topic and quiz in bible history; and massive amounts of reading in law to cover this week... really none of it seems fair; each class is also assigning a paper in addition to all of this crap, that will be due within a week of each other; doesnt leave much time for me to do much. well see how i hold up closer to finals week. || working on this arh valentines day project is giving me flashbacks to vdays of the past. i guess its pretty selfish of me to not want to proceed with the project just because i dont like valentines day [and yes i do realize its not even halloween yet]. i was hoping this year wouldnt be much different, and id be able to stay in bed all day, skip classes, and just forget that day every occured. but as its shaping up, that doesnt look like it will be much of a reality. ill probably be stuck in the middle of all these kids and their 'love' for others... infact, ill be the one dolling out said 'love' in the forms of cookies... such irony in it all. the one person who has had the absolute worst track record of v'days; becomes responsible for ensuring everyone has a spectacular vday this year. i hate the idea. no one else really seems to notice. and i guess if i was a girl or sentimental, or was in a different situation, yeah i might appreciate the project; but its just really something hard to swallow when youve been through the wars like have. i suppose i could allways be chipper about it all, appearantly the way that all of you viewers have been about this; but i really dont expect to see any change for myself this year, nothing markedly different than the past few. but its funny what youll tell yourself sometimes just to think different about it all. i can remember being at home on my birthday, and staring at my candles and making that one stuipd birthday wish. not to jinx it, but it hasnt come true yet. maybe thats sad, and maybe its sad that i thought it might come true. either way, ill will be sitting in sappiness of pink and red hearts before i know it. allmost makes me wish id suggested something for halloween or a cool holliday like that instead of what i did.... || sounds like i could get to go home for part of the weekend.... ive joked alot about what home really is; but honestly im not far from the truth... i havent seen it since i moved here in early august. not that id get to spend much time there, just maybe it would be enough to partially recharge my batteries... getting to sleep in my big comfy bed, thats not 9 feet in the air! like i said in other posts, im allways a bit hesitant to go back to davenport. there really are alot of people and memories in that town still, that i just dont think i want to wade around in anymore. not that i can deny what all has happened, just its alot easier to forget it all when your not there. little things just appear when you go to the grocery store, or pull up to a car at a stop light.. you see people and things, that you just dont want to see anymore. maybe some more tomorrow... more likely friday before i leave..

ain't if fun~
s.