i dont know why im posting now. just kind of bored... sitting at the keys... figured i could do something here. its just that, i absolutely detest people who dont post. granted; they are higher on the totem pole, than the people that only post meme's and song lyrics 40 times per day; but not much. for the life of me; if you felt like you had something important to say, why dont you all tell it? sometimes i kind of feel like im the only person will to keep throwing my thoughts out here on the void. its much more comforting when you arent alone. but. i dunno. i guess on some level were all alone. all the time. on some level, there never is a way we can connect to anybody else. there are those moments where you can think to yourself how close you can be to the person next to you; but really that six inches of space can be miles. by proximity we often seem to equate closeness. connectivity. union. but i just cant come past the point of understanding how on every level we can be something with someone else. im not sure what im working at here. im probably talking circles around my own thought. but on the drive home tonight, i thought about how people can be close that are far apart. i thought about how people can be far apart that are close. i thought about how you can sit at the same table with someone youve known for years, look in their eyes, and just read the reaction that they are miles removed from that seat at the table. and it puzzles me, how we dont always understand that for what it means in life. that on some level, you cant ever be totally conected to anybody else. in a way, i hoped that i could reconnect on something with a friend of mine tonight. if nothing else, a heartfelt 10 minute coversation about where we've been, and where were going. and you stop in look in their eyes and see thats not an interest. its not a mood. its not a phase. its not a [un]sociable outlook. and i thought about how we, as people, end up creating a void around us sometimes. its a space we keep that cleaves the continum between you and me. it keeps you out. it strangles me in. but its fundamental in understanding the people around you. because we all fight for connection on different levels. but finding out on what planes we make those breaks.... those slight cecessions... thats how we find out how far apart we are from each other; when we try to connect again.



so... something else. myspace. i cant see how this is an addiction for anyone. i really dont. but i will say how nifty it is. im running into people from high school and farther back id have never heard from again, by using it. very cool. flip side of that is, its going to be harder and harder to disappear from people like that, with something like myspace being available. but i love how school districts are banning it left and right. friendster, myspace, facebook, third reich, kkk, black panthers, taliban... all of these are malicious groups, which we can not tolerate our nations youth joining into. for shits sake. while there are some 13 year old girls out there somewhere, stripping off their training bras and taking pictures for the internet to see; its hardly ban-worthy. if you want to start a mess about censoring websites, or information from kids; you better come up with a damn clear reason as to why.... and present that to them. dont come at me with "a kid bragged about being a drug dealer on it" or "there are boobies" or "dateline nbc caught people looking to have sex with kids"... god. because when Stone Phillips becomes the defacto standard of evolving educational policy for this nation; we know we arent getting honest answers. the real answer, like why cell phones and pagers were banned... like why certain kinds of clothing were banned... like why walkmans were banned... etc. is because the governing generation has no idea what to make of it yet. they just dont get what myspace is about. sure. you can show them. yes. you can set up and account for them. but they just arent going to get it. so they fear it. then they ban it. then it just gets absurd after a while. pagers used to be only for drug dealers. that was the line they gave us. how about a kid waiting on an organ transplant, did they know that the state sometimes hands out pagers to recipiants for that? in a post 9-11 world, what if someones in dire need of help after a catastrophe, wouldnt a cell phone in the school, in a kids backpack, come in handy? never. we just keep aiming to make policy based on the worst case scenario in this country. myspace is now inclusive of that.