i think im running into a problem of motivation... i realized this as its about 3pm, when urinating in the bathroom. i was trying to decide what i was going to do with the rest of the day. there are millions of words in books that i need to have read... plenty of latin to decypher.... even laundry to wash. so i walked back out. sat down. and played about 4 hours of MVP Baseball. killed the whole day. so then its about 8pm. and im thinking i could get something done. yes. yes i could. i could get several more innings in. and i did. then rolls around 10 pm. i take a break to sit on AIM for a while. looking at my latin pile. it dawns on me that i have 20 lines to memorize before wednesday. i know 3. sigh. so i chat on AIM a while longer. and now im sitting here. about 11pm. on a wasted day. i got nothing done. not even my regular latin homework. i guarantee mark will call on me now. but. strangely i dont seem too worried. i just. dont have the motivation to worry. and i think thats a problem. i think its a big problem. seeing as how i only have about 1 full month to finish EVERYTHING academic in order to graduate, ive somehow run out of steam already. sigh. this isnt good. this is really, really not good. i want to get done. i want to be the hell out of iowa. but it seems like i cant force my self long enough to finish it. i assume ill spend the entire week at the library again. and all of this weekend as well. i have 8 pages due on a book i havent even bought yet, due friday morning. i work approximately 40 hours between then. and i still have all that latin to memorize. and im only taking 2 classes. it shouldnt be hard. it shouldnt be THIS hard atleast.....