Peeling Away

gross. i hate peeling. i spent all day in the sun at the rod and custom show in Des Moines with my dad and brother; im paying for it. my mom said its a pretty bad sunburn. grandma even commented on it... and shes having eye surgery soon. . i dunno. it doesnt really hurt. i suppose that could be bad... damaging all the nerve endings and pain receptors. or its good, it just doesnt hurt too much. but now my head is peeling. it itches, and when i touch it, it tends to sting. im expecting the next 3 days to be the most embarassing of it all; when the skin on my scalp and forhead peel and look like i have massive dandruf flakes. goodie. i keep playing with it. i know im supposed to stop poking it. maybe i just think it will stop itching. yeah right.

other than that, i spent the day in iowa city. meetings and such. i thought my job ended a few months ago? nope- they just stop paying me i suppose. its nice seeing some of these people. i lie well. its really aggrivating dealing with them sometimes. theres only so much these people with phD's tend to listen to punk undergrads, and after an hour long meeting in a room; im sure ive used up all my minutes. although im bound to confidentiallity; i can divulge [for those that care] that progress is being made rapidly for the new Director of Residence Services; we've selected down to a small group, about 6 i guess... maybe less.... to bring to campus. but thats as of now. theres a million steps that Affirmative Action Office takes before that happens. 2 people already pulled out of the pool as well. but we do have some good candidates. i was suprised by the quality of a couple. appalled at the quality of a few others. it will be interesting to see where it moves on to in the next few weeks. too bad i miss out on the best part; seeing the end result. im done and gone from the Department in any official sense, and even my name and memory will be ghostly by the time this person takes office. just as well.

also met an EXTREMELY cool person today. Terri in Risk Management Office. i thought she was just a receptionist or clerk; my guess was she wasnt much older than me. damn gina. blonde, blue eyes, gorgeous all over. turns out she is 36. has 2 kids. is married. yeah wow. couldnt have been farther off the mark there, could i? nevertheless; she is very cool. she seems to know damn near everything going on; real open to talking... ended up spending 2.5 hours talking with her for a 10 minute question. turns out shes the Claims person. anytime someone makes a claim of insurance against the university, it pretty much goes through her hands. she had some interesting stories. shes also had an interesting life. hadnt been that into a conversation in a long time. since i met Erin L. really. turns out Terri got married and had kids at 19... didnt work out right, one day got a divorce and decided to go back to college at age 30 something. so she worked fulltime hours 9 to 5, has 2 kids, 2 dogs, a house, and still took college classes. shes pretty amazing. i know people that bitch about school and 10 hours of committment per week... i grumble when the workload hit 30 hours and classes... but ive never had to deal with kids and things like that along with it. total respect in my book for her. kinda funny standing there talking about life to a complete stranger and feeling like the other person understood it all. she did give me some advice, which was also cool of her. felt like advice from mom, but from an older sister or something like that. but, as far as business goes, i got lots of good information for my new pet project. also, the big shit kicker was shes interested in it! that was a feel good thing. she and i have some similar ideas about how to approach this thing at this university and how to remedy some problems. thats about all ill say about the new venture. im keeping it my secret till it gets moving some more, ill have time to do that it looks like; since Student Legal passed me over. i was pretty furious at the moment. still thinking about asking for written reasons why, i cant honestly see people more qualified than i; and i knew everyone in the room interviewing me... only one would have given me a bad rating. yeah. whatever. she can eat asshole. probably still mad about the alcohol discussion pannel that happened in the spring.

iowa city is a strange place. everytime im there i loose track of when it is. [well today was obviously Ho Season, judging by the attire], but i mean i run in to the damndest people all over. Donnice [koosh ball] was in the IMU, so was Piek, Bender, some dude from my Holstein lecture whose name i never learned, on the street i ran into a hall coordinator, a girl from my rhetoric class [yes shes still hot], and a guy from my freshman year floor. scary. worse yet. i saw someone who was an absolute dead ringer for Erin L. i think i would say i know her intimately enough that i would know her or not in a crowd... i swore it was her. she had a total erin outfit on, an erin purse, was on the cell phone constantly, same pink jewel toe ring... i went up and tapped her on the shoulder when she was outside of Subway. she turned around, and it wasnt her. but damn. i was totally fooled. thats scary. if i saw this girl more than 15 paces away, id swear it was her, she looked that much alike. but i felt like a tard when it wasnt her. i think i pissed off the poor girl too. ugly fat men in day light do that i suppose.

aside from that i just had a general feeling of wanting to talk. after starting it up with Terri, i just felt so in the need to sit and talk to someone today... i tried calling a few people. no answers mostly. a certain someone hung up on me, then dumps me to voice mail when i call back. its aggrivating. i dunno. i make myself available for people all the time to talk; and when i want to--- nada. generally no one cares. no one listens. people hang up. truth be told, i miss the kind of conversations i had with someone. hanging around Terri today reminded me of that. relationships arent all about sex and looks; there is infact a big emotional interaction as a part of it. kinda missing that part lately.... kinda bad.

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