Just One More Anniversary...

Current Musical Selection: Alice In Chains - Down In A Hole

among other things, today is a day of anniversary of sorts. a year ago, at about this same damn location, i pounded out my very first blog entry. exciting. it was also on this day [almost] that the REAL Guns N Roses played their last live concert, nearly 10 years ago... now do you see why i picked the title that i did? probably not.

so a year ago i decided id let people see what i think. i dunno how wrong i was to do that, but im still doing it now. im not sure whats so wrong about it; but i guess it has something to do with what i think about. maybe how i think. maybe that i think. that offends people so well. lets be honest folks, since ive been doing this ive probably lost about 4 friends along the way, due in part, if not in total to this space. im not sure how to react to that when i think about it. i mean, does it say that much about what i write? or does it say that little about the people that take offense to it. again, its not that id ever stop thinking or feeling the way that i do; just that i have internalized it slightly less. and that turns people off. why? see, it doesnt bother people when others come screaming and yelling at them; or when others come blubbering away at their doorstep about something; no, not nearly to the degree that little old me, miles away, in pixels, can seem to offend you. you, who come to my place, uncolicited, and of your own desire to read this space on a continuous nature, are the ones thats are offended. so im most surprised about why the hell some of you come here then? especially if all you do is read it to get mad at me, or use it as ammunition against me. or how about the people that cower in the corners and still read this? perfect strangers dont bother me, its the people that i DO KNOW that sit and read this meticulously as entertainment, that i worry about. ive never been interesting; but over the last year, ive become interesting to some of you. so its alot of mixed emotion involved with observing a date like this.

to take a moment to those that have decided to stop associating yourself wtih me because of this space:

fuck off. really. you arent missed.



to take a moment to those that have decided to continue reading or have started reading this space:

congrads. dunno what else to say, other than i hope you enjoy the ride.


so in the past year, alot of other things have also happened to me. alot. and most of it has appeared in this space. so, for me, there is a definite interest in keeping this space going; if for nothing else, that for my ability to recollect what happened to me in the past. especially as a way for me to remember how i felt in certain situations and at certain times. so ive chosen to continue on with this space. so well see what happens in the year to come... L O T S is going to happen soon. i know it will. keep watching, keep reading, and go down fighting.

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