Current Musical Selection: Soundgarden - Fell On Black Days

ive been playing lots of Chris Cornell lately... soundgarden, the solo cd, plus audio slave... after flipping through mtv this weekend i saw a special on the greatest voices in the music industry, chris ended up like 15th or something stupidly low... below Ja Rule and Eminem, its a travesty. really. Mr. Rule and Mr. M have no talent when it comes to vocal ability; all they have is the ability to rhyme words with speed and efficiency. sure cornell's lyrics may not make much sense or mean a whole lot; but his voice is memorable, more so than just being the guy that sang Black Hole Sun. Fell on Black Days is a better song to hear him on, The Day I Tried To Live is also a good choice.

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anyway, im not thrilled with work. only a month left, as everyone keeps reminding me. the hours just arent there really. sure i work like a dog; but only 3 days of the week. we might do a 12 hour shift, and the next day im out in 4 hours. its really pointless. the people are asses. horses asses. either they are totaly incompetent or they are so situated in what they do, they arent worth it. i was told how one guy has 25 years experience about 30494 times today. like i give a shit. hes still folding papers and jamming up machines like the rest of us that have been there 3 weeks. doesnt stop him from getting a lecture in at me either. fuck off man. its paper. its loading a machine with paper. its watching the paper move away. it aint open heart surgery, and its not putting men on the moon. who cares how good you think you are at it; just stop bitching about being here 25 years... because all the rest of us hear is someone who should have found another job; or a ball-gag.

this place must be loosing its shirt on our division. we pay 9 people to work during the shift sometimes, 4 are doing the work. 2 are off somewhere else, 3 are sitting around talking. always the same 3. no one seems to care or do much. doesnt make any sense why everyone else busts hump to get work done and they sit. if theyd throw in, wed be done in half the time. forget it. they wouldnt help. then they are the first ones to go home. the rest of us stay there 11 hours. one guy was right; its damn hard to get fired from that place. even ))))) and this will come out wrong (((((( the handicapped cant get fired from there. in a job that requires you to be alert and attentive [not intelligent or able], this woman/girl? is the worst of them all. shes been there atleast a year... so that means with performance increases, shes topping out over 9 bucks an hour... she jams the machines, walks away sits on the ground and crys. doesnt pay attention to directions, gets in the way. and has a cabbage patch doll she brings with everyday. fuck that. ive got to be doing something wrong. i shouldnt pay attention, show up on time after breaks or stay at my machine; because all these other people can get away without doing it.

what else... has to be something positive. law school stuff is comming in now. thats scary. prospectively in a year's time ill be throwing away 25 grand a year, and 18 hours a day to more school. but atleast then ill never have to take orders from ass clowns for 7 bucks an hour, ever again. law school kind of scares me. it means ill have to leave. u of iowa wont take me. they were rejecting gpas less than 3.64 last year, and this year is supposed to be even more competitive. so the only other place in the state is Drake. id go there, i guess. its not top on the list. so then im looking outside the state, and that is going to be a big change for me. one of the front runners now is looking like University of Akron in Ohio. ohio isnt so far away. closer still is John Marshall in Chicago. id like to go there. but for a few private reasons, im not sure if moving to chicago would be my best choice, things need to pan out first. although thats a terrible way of looking at it. it is MY future that im investing in, and i should look at my options based on others futures. but its in the back of my mind. drake is still an option tho. i love one program they have in legislative law. i could see myself ending up doing something like that. not sure i could afford Drake though. wait and see i suppose.

and like that its fucking july allready. this year is moving by pretty fast. last i knew it was still february and snow was on the ground. seansons change so fast anymore i dont really notice them. sad really. never have much of a chance to look around, its always whats going on infront of me that has to hold my attention, never a chance to put everything else in my sights for once. but this year is moving fast. before i know it, its going to be snowing again i guess. lots of things to come before that happens i hope, but its comming. just as sure as its hot and muggy out, the snow is really only days away in iowa. things are like that. its all relative when time moves so fast. so fast.


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