the life and times of some guy in iowa. just another nobody who never had a chance. someone else alot like you.
Thursday, February 07, 2013
Recent Going’s On’s
Secondly, my second [pun] blog, BuyMeABurrito.blogspot.com , has been getting some key time as well. This is all about eating. Foodies better come rolling in! It was out of necessity of trying to find a descent burrito in all my travels. Sure, I can name several in Texas, Mexico and California… even some I frequent in the Quad City area that local for me, but this blog is purely about answering the question; Where can I Buy Me A Burrito?!?! Expect about a half dozen entries by mid summer. My goal is to start ripping off an entry a month [if I can travel that much!], always love feedback. Besides, its about food that’s fucking amazing.
Third, I was a special attraction [read: circus clown] on a semi active podcast about World of Warcraft, the Grand Old Podcast. I had been the featured artist from which the show had been pulling artwork for their web notes of the episodes. I was drug on to be me for a little while, tell some stories [most of which ended up being edited out, thankfully] and talk about my art. Turns out some people on the internet find me interesting… like a car wreck. So I can announce we are formulating a semi regular sit down. We are aiming for once a month, maybe more. Pretty much me getting turned loose on hot microphones for a few hours. It’s a good experience, and I’m excited to be a part of it!
Fourth, I am going through all of my noted technology upgrades so I can really put more focus into my art. Photography is something I really enjoy and would love to set my life and livelihood around. Those of you that know me, know I’m not interested in doing weddings and newborns; but expose on life and landscape is just fine. My hard art [read fuzzy images] have gotten some listening and murmurings from some art directors and museum directors, so I need to listen to that. At some point I have to jump if its anything near me to grasp… hoping the next few months that can happen.
/S
Sunday, February 03, 2013
More Windows 8 Fun
Well my grocery list of problems is quickly shortened after a full day of research in Windows 8.
At the moment my concerns are:
- transferring iTunes library and iphone/ipad backups
- transferring photo catalog and Lightroom databases
- review of missing plug ins for Lightroom and Mozilla
- last sweep of old XP installation for programs to reaquire
The good news is; I would say I’ve already met about 80% of my computing needs as is. I could always start over with my Lightroom catalog [although I’d rather not!], and the photos are backed up and can be sucked backwards from the NAS unit as well… but iTunes is my biggest hurdle.
From what I’ve read, iTunes is a pain in the ass to move if you have manually edited your music library and save data. That means me. Its also a royal pain in the ass because it’s a closed vault system, with everything encrypted in one large cluster-fuck file format [save data]. So if there are any expert migrators with iTunes success, I’m all ears.
So far though; I'm pleased with the progress. The power consumption of the new hardware is incredibly low for the features I have. It reboots from the suspend state in seconds… which is jaw dropping compared to XP or even Vista. And the cold boot process is probably around 30 seconds—of which about 8 seconds sits and waits for the bios to load and pass before rolling into Windows.
My core I5 at 3.4ghz is humming along, 16gb of ram doesn’t seem taxed in the least [although I am going to double it shortly!] and I have a second 2tb disk waiting to get dropped in the bays. Once I decide what the fate of the old beige box will be, there are two more 2tb drives to migrate into blackie black box. At this point, I’m considering keeping the XP install as it is, and adding a Linux install on the beige box. If I go that route, I will be adding in a kvm to the mix to alternate. At this stage the worst piece of hardware in there is the on-board graphics. I hadn’t planned on doing a lot of gaming anymore, and I know nothing about the changes in GPUs' and slots for that… Plus, it seems to render all the environment without issue, and crunches photo data without complaint. Cross my fingers; this is working out well.
A lot of my initial frustration with the OS has to do with the complete redesign. But the widgets are really growing on me. If the availability was a bit wider; or if I learned how to code what I wanted; it would be great! The biggest disappointment has been Google of all people… they still deny the existence of Windows 8 widgets so it seems. Actually per a short interview, http://news.cnet.com/8301-1023_3-57558839-93/google-no-immediate-plans-for-google-apps-on-windows-8/ The G unit feels there isn’t demand for any of their services that aren’t satisfied by cloud computing needs. I disagree. I really feel this would benefit from a quick, light weight Chrome window to run at the start screen, as well as a Google Drive process start screen. Lets be honest, both of their major competitors in the cloud drive market are here with apps of their own [Dropbox and Microsoft's SkyDrive], and with Microsoft populating the experience in email and calendar, two more key area’s I prefer Google services, I really feel this is an oversight on Google’s part. From the horse’s mouth:
"Our goal is to be able to offer our users a seamless app experience across all platforms and want to make our products available to as many people as possible," the representative said. "We're always evaluating different platforms, but have no detailed plans to share at this time."
Google Apps include Drive, Docs, Sheets, and Slides, as well as Gmail and Calendar. [-- From Cnet article by Casey Newton.]
Not knowing what the licensing has to be for using the apps/widget process in Win8, I would still expect that the cloud sourced options of Google Docs would buy up a shitload of market share… as Microsoft still charges for Office 365 product line, and even it doesn’t have a descent app/widget. Google could be king, steamrolling Microsoft at their own game, on their own platform.
Saturday, February 02, 2013
New and {Less?} Improved on Windows 8
Its been a while since ive posted anything… so it should stand to merit, that while im here, there better be a good damn reason.
Ive migrated to windows 8.
Let that simmer.
This is the first new OS install Ive done since 2004ish. Yikes. While I have refreshed that install of Windows XP several times, and my laptop runs Vista [still, for now…], I haven’t even updated my linux format in years…. this has been a big jump. After stupidly deciding to build my own machine, I also erred again by opting for Windows 8. It’s a complete mistake to think you can acquire, assemble, and out price any PC manufacturer in the modern age. With comparable parts, and without a copy of Windows, I was sitting just over 200 bucks over the off the shelf edition by Asus. By the time I add a license, I’m approaching 300 dollars. Again, I like doing things… I like assembling… I like tinkering…. but I hate wasting money. So by the time Windows 8 rolls around…. eessh… I feel at a big loss.
I decided on it, rather than Windows 7; simply because of the age of the product. Think about it: in its own environment, I could probably make Windows 98 work for what I do. But when you start coupling services, protocols, and software demands on it; you move several steps forward. I had been running Windows XP for years…. YEARS. It was time to move on. If I was going to bite the bullet, why spend as much on technology that’s already 3 years behind the curve… so I went Win8. Thinking that future proofing myself was the best case scenario; and recalling that when I first installed Project: Whistler, in college [what became NT, what begot Win XP], I was on bleeding edge then as well. If 8 serves me half as well, I’ve done my job with it. Cross fingers..
Its been an upside down experience to say the least for the last 24 hours. But im writing from a native blogging app; which should help me get back on the road to posting… stay tuned.
Nothing about Windows 8, on face value, has much of anything to do with previous versions of the platform. I'm finding that the root functionality does exist, but its been buried. The new slick operation of widgets, [they call Apps], to run from the Start [button] screen, are a clusterfuck of confusion for the newcomer. But a day later, I’m genuinely beginning to appreciate them.
also follow my twitter stream… tagged #win8 for my exploits!
http://twitter.com/alvarado_scott
**UPDATE***
I finally dropped some music into the stock player…. and seriously… who forgot the volume control????
I like my Black Sabbath loud, and I love it Dio… But a loud Ozzy, with no means other than rip out my line jack… not so good. Oversight? I think so. Put in a fucking volume slider in the app. Don’t make me flip through 18 metro tiles to change it in software!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Its not every day, in every city, a former cop/ former mayor gets to plead guilty for theft. Not only theft, but while working for a pawn shop in the downtown area.... Not only for a pawnshop, but falsifying records for fake pawns, then pocketing about 10k in cash. Yeah. Thats a Quad Cities kind of day. Keep it classy out there folks.
Hello Quad Cities!!!!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
[M]uch ado about [M]irrors
Earlier this week Canon officially announced its newest eye-porn, bank drainer; the EOS-M. This is M for mis-nomer, M for more money, and M is for moniker.
From what I experience, people seem to think removable lenses yield better results [image quality]. Secondly people want smaller, lighter products that are less to man handle. I get that too. I get tired of dragging 40 pounds of gear with me at times. Lastly we all want sexy. So camera manufacturers must make it sexy. So what do we do? If we're the camera industry we find a way to marry the two ideas, and give you neither of what you want, but make it look drop dead sexy. Enter the mirrorless, and Canon M platform.
I'm a Canon-ite. I openly admit this. I love their gear. Its not what I learned on, but I've made the switch for many reasons; and one of which is the availability of glass. Canon of course makes great glass for their own systems. The difference is the availability of OTHER manufacturers glass. Huh? Competition. Back in the dark [room] ages, lenses were not interchangeable, and were unique mounts mainly because of the intricacy of making a system operable. Focal lengths to the image plane had to very widely with the unending sizes of film available; as well as the ridiculously small apertures people were shooting through. Add in the 35mm film cell standard, and 40 years of mechanical intervention, and we start to see some realy thought and technology invested into the platforms. Competition isn't far off now, is it? So all the other manufacturers learned image quality was half film/recording state, and half [or more] optics getting that light to the image recording plane. So while making your own lens was nice, it became a revenue stream. And where there's money, there is people willing to make money. So some manufacturers decided to start working their products fit onto other manufacturers products; or simply quit the camera business and focus on the optics portion of the game [remember, we'd standardized to 35mm film by this point, and the film companies we not pressed to re-invent the film until the needs existed], so as glass quality went up, so did the demands on film. Rangefinder style cameras had to go away nearly over night once they met the might 35mm slr platforms that started gaining popularity in the late 1960's. Especially by the time of the calculated program metering 1970s and 80s hit, glass was king. Now the camera did much of the work of evaluating exposure, and to do it correctly it had run the light through the glass you were using to make the evaluations. Sounds great, who gives a fuck?
That pushed out those precious rangefinders. Rangefinder camera systems did not use the light coming through the lens to make calculations; and if they did [read late 1970s, and modern digital Leica platforms] you still weren't able to see what the lens saw. All of the field of view was approximated. Slr's used a flipping mirror action that routed light to your eye to see what the lens saw, then flipped to let light pass through to the film / recording plane. All of that wonder and splendor added a mechanical contraption that is prone to failure and excessive mechanics. Keep in mind, if its not light tight, pictures are ruined, image evaluation is faulty [at best], and you get a frustrating day of not taking pictures. For what they were worth, rangefinders were still mechanically simpler [even if drastically difficult to reassemble yourself], with fewer failures, in a smaller package, and gave slightly sub par, but similar performance to slr's. But to improve on their photographic value, few manufacturers spent time developing glass for the rangefinders, and moved into the revenue stream of making new slrs. Those that did remain, come with cumbersome bayonet and screw threads to detach lenses from the body, and were very limited in angle and aperture. Slr's took all the development, all the cookies, and your piggy bank.
Come to the modern era. Now that film is gone, why does it matter if the same light is brought through the lens to your eye? For several years we have had great success with live-view systems, where the light hitting the sensor is displayed on the digital screen on the back. I use it frequently for critical focus and metering myself. Why is that damned mirror still there? The industry first tried removing it about 8 years ago with the micro 4/3rds platform. Which took a smaller sensor, a smaller overall physical product, and added industry standard mounts so anyone could make glass for any platform. Lens makers could make lenses. Camera makers could make cameras. Digital sensor engineers could work their magic. For companies like Nikon, and Canon, this was a no go. Wheres the piggy bank at when you don't sell your own lens? Its in someone else's pocket now. But just like 40 years ago, people still desire a simple alternative to take better pictures, with limited means of adaptability.
Whats killing the micro 4/3rds platform is the lack of big names. Canon and Nikon. So they sit and wait. Now we are the present. With Nikon running out its own platform last year, Canon plays catch up this year with its own. This new toy starts out with a proprietary lens mount. Why? Because consumers want that! Bullshit. I don't. Nikon and Canon want that. People want to get better image quality than a cellphone and point and shoot; so we'll brand this new toy with the EOS moniker. Why? Because we will steal the sensor from the slr line, thats why! So now people have the quality of the slr, but how do we make it smaller? We gut the mirror. So now we have our sexy M moniker, mirrorless. We've made half the battle up at this point.
To get the money M in there, we can just shrink the mount by 5 millimeters, and make it electronically different. Poof. Since no one else can make glass, we make money. So its about money. Isn't it? Noooo this is cheaper! Its simple. Its small. How can it cost more? Well with a lens it will set you back 900 bucks. You can buy the same slr they ripped this image sensor from, that weights about 1.5 times as much, and is an inch thicker, with available and varied glass, for half of that price. Its about money. The EOS M:oney model is born.
Notice, I haven't even touched it. I don't care to. I love my rangefinders. I love my slr's But I love them for two different reasons. I don't want a complicated lens system and changing bag for my rangefinder. I want a streamlined, analog, approach that isn't always laser precise. I want my slr for a bag of options, for ways to solve challenging lighting, with precision. I don't want the peanut butter in my ice cream. Canon is betting I don't. Its a complete mis-nomer to have a small, lightweight system; that necessitates a bag full of glass to get anything done. Besides which, to gain the complexity of control over the image sensor overly complicates the experience for someone that wants to make quick photos. But its selling you the idea that this is better than a point and shoot [minus that its MORE encumbering and expensive], and looks like its equal to an slr [it isn't] in performance. Quite the misnomer. Then the loyal Canon buyer either gets to play with a limited amount of expensive lenses [2 as of right now] that are of questionable quality [definitely not up to the L glass standard!], or buy a stupid mount adapter that will affect your image quality. $hit.
People are floored that I'm mad about a new Canon product. Its just so pointless. Its a category that doesn't really make sense, but will make some money for Canon. But it runs the risk of alienating consumers [by the complexity and price tag for essentially a point and shoot], and limiting the creativity by limiting the lenses available. Make a damned micro 4/3rds mount instead. Show off your optical resolve that way. Make consumers flock to you to buy your glass, instead of giving them a reason to go somewhere else. The only reason you have with the M platform: no one else makes any!
Thursday, May 03, 2012
What flows into my mind
I think that I'm rapidly approaching burnout stage. They have me working hard for many hours doing far too many things for far too little money. I miss seeing the sun. Miss having days off really good call friends or even read my email. Anymore you Indian to sit down and eat dinner while the sun is or have two hours to do laundry is a luxury I don't have. And it's all so very depressing to consider what I become to make a company more than what it was six weeks ago. I'm trying hard to be impartial; but the addition of the store the size and magnitude built and staffed doesn't go unnoticed. It's been on the front page of both newspapers several times. Television advertising is hard to miss at normal levels; but now during grand opening its unbearable. But people are excited to come give their money away. And uncle John is more than happy to take it. Accountable people that you need to stand there and take it, are the truest hard things to come by. Working 70 and 80 hour weeks indefinitely; it's not a good existence. And forget the money crap. From working all these hours the money doesn't justify my feet killing me. Or the fact that I'm practically a zombie.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
A little bit of nothing
Monday, March 12, 2012
Adventures In Wet Shaving, Update
Since so many people have been asking me, through the typical quiet channels, I thought I might give a bit of an update on my adventures in wet shaving. More importantly are my long form thoughts on the mechanical aspects.
What makes it wet? New-comers like me may opine that it’s the blood. That makes it sound like torture to most people. Its half true. Its not called wet shaving because of that, but in the beginning there has been a fair amount of bleeding! Its wet because you need to use water and lather much more frequently than most disposable blades require, and nearly no electric razor on the market requires it [or functions correctly if you do use it!]. So already the key is quality and quantity of lather. Coming from a disposable system mindset, gel based bullshit was ubiquitous for this purpose. Getting past the garbage aerosol scent and reddi-whip appearance of Barbasol products, and graduating to the generic gels, gave the best results. In fact, my favorite non gel form, made at one time Edge as a cream in an apothecary type tube, would have been my only trial in wet shaving… the rest of it is awful. The gel products create a low friction point [good], but extremely thin and viscous. Why? Because they clog the 5 blade razors too quickly [bad]. I need to lower the point of friction, but not to nothing. Some of that friction is important, I’ve found.
Friction in multi blade throw-away’s comes from two places: poor lubrication across multiple blades and cutting surfaces, and poor technique. Both of those points, on a quality edge wet shaving system will gouge seams in your face like the ones on your jeans! Since I’m relying on only one edged surface to cut with, the ability of the shaving creams or lathers must not run or flush too quickly from the surface; and since its only one edge, clogging between blades isn’t of any concern. Granted, this razor will clog as well, but it takes considerably more material [wider blades, and more space available in the razor head], and you are constantly flushing the head of the razor with water to clear away the build up of lather from the non cutting surfaces. As a down side [of sorts], I’m using considerably more lather than I had with a 5-blade throw-away. A tall can of Fusion Gel lasted me MONTHS [six maybe?] with daily use. That’s ridiculous, and I realize that. However using more of the gel product didn’t make a difference in performance: the gel product was still thin, would still clog very quickly in the cartridge, and it didn’t change my poor habits. And with the advent of built in lubrication strips [note to reader: if dissipating friction was not an issue, why are manufacturers putting these on the cartridges? Because their gel products clog the cartridge, in the attempt to continually atomize the particles to lubricate the growing number of cutting surfaces. So they include lubrication that does not leave residue to clog, but that still acts as a friction modifier to the gel system]. In short, the fewer the cutting surfaces, the less you need to worry about keeping each lubricated to relieve friction problems.
A bit more about the blades is important before I get to technique. The cutting edge is honed to exacting specifications by these manufacturers, and ideally, the edge cuts as clean of a pass on one face as another. So why doesn’t work like that? Piss poor technique, and product engineering. As the material the edge is made out of is thinned, and its composition is changed, the quality of the blade will change with it. Softer material dulls quickly [rather, the edge folds and rolls or degrades against stronger materials], but harder / denser materials have less flexibility inherently. Manufacturers must strike a balance to keep flexibility [to move with the round contours of the human face, and to stay some what forgiving when necessary], yet keep the edge honed to cut cleanly.
Adding multiple blades became the fad, and it introduced thinner, flexible blades of softer material. Why? First and foremost, to sell more cartridges… No shit. As the edge dulls, you need to replace it, since it no longer cuts the hairs. Seems simple, but people glaze past this point. Part and parcel, adding multiple blades in a cartridge raised the price. Now its about money, on recurring bases, balancing how quickly the edge dulls, multiplied by the price point of each sold cartridge unit, divided by the likelihood of the consumer to purchase replacement cartridges on a frequent recurrence. But it also gives you the impression the blades weren’t flexible before; and in fact as a cartridge, they are less flexible now. In the same idea as doubling up 2x4s to strengthen a wall, creating five layers of redundancy spanning a distance will always yield less flexibility than spanning the same distance with one substrate. Each of the extra blades keeps you from bending and flexing, increasing rigidity. The notion of rigidity is engineered into the cartridge because of the poor technique of the user! [I promise I’m coming to that point!]
So I’m using a single cutting edge, that is more flexible than its “modern” counterpart, that needs different lubrication demands [that are actually in my favor], how the hell am I cutting myself more often? Its that poor technique. [bingo]
Using the multi-blade disposables we fight friction with minimalist layers of lubrication [to keep from clogging the blades], on cartridges that are firm and moderately inflexible by comparison sake. However, we introduce friction to combat its by product. You push harder to over come the softer edges that dull faster on the multi blades, to get the same quality shave as the edge disintegrates. Secondly you make fewer passes over skin because you have made the same pass 3 to 5 times with each cartridge movement. The idea of a once and done solution. That doesn’t work with a single blade. As my blade flexes better, it will bend and skip over spots on my skin that are not completely flat [read: everywhere]. What I’m seeing in my bleeding pattern are many, small dabs of blood. When I shaved and erred with cartridge razors I had deep cuts that bled and were wide. Its clear that the force I was using on the cartridge systems made the cuts; and it’s the blade bouncing causing smaller pricks with the single edge. My technique then became the issue, as I realized this.
I have always trusted in the cartridge razors’ motto: once and done. Making one pass, or two if really necessary, is all it needed to get the job done. With a single edge, I do need to make two or three passes. But more importantly, I need to relube and lather up each time…. something I rarely did with cartridges. Secondly, friction is important, but it doesn’t come from pressure. Using hand pressure flattens the skin around [and in between blades] of a cartridge system. On a single edge you will cut yourself deeply. With a multi blade cartridge you are minimizing the pressure by distributing it across multiple points. You don’t always cut yourself because it’s the same idea as the old circus bed of nails trick… however as the skin changes angles and is no longer flat, that’s when you bite hard… with excessive pressure behind a dulled edge, you do immense damage in the little vertical wrinkle under the nose and above the lip! With the single edge, I need some friction to know I’m gaining traction and working with the skin, pulling it taunt under the blade; this pops the hairs up and keeps from ballooning skin up in front of the cutting edge.
All of this takes time and forethought. But as of 2 months into it, I will say, I have a much closer shave, that I can get two days out of with a single edge system, compared to the cartridge razors. Secondly I can factor in the pricing as such:
Cartridge Razor Typical Expenditures:
1 - 2cartridge each week: 3.75 each
1 razor handle: 9.00 [good for a year or so]
1 can saving gel : 3.00
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in 60 days totals: 57.00
Straight Razor Blade Typical Expenditures:
1 blade each week: .30 each [in 50pk quantity]
1 stypic pencil: 1.97 [good for years?]
1 cake shaving crème: 1.99 [good for 6 months]
1 shaving brush: 20.00 [good for years]
1 razor handle: 25.00 [good for decades]
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in 60 days totals: 51.36
Also note… that while I do have to purchase and use more items, they are cheaper, and they do last considerably longer in the wet shaving system. In a years time, I should be somewhere in the 30% to 50% price equivalency of cartridge shaving. It does add up. But I have learned that much so far.
S
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Without the nicks and cuts of a blade
Sunday, February 13, 2011
New Year, New Post
Sounds good. Except that was a month and a half ago.
I dunno. I'll get back into this at some point. I know I will. The past few months have had some major changes in my life. My grandmother died right after the new year. Which was pretty hard. To make it worse, we had the funeral on my 30th birthday. 30 was something else thats messed with me. In my head more than anything else, so far. Lastly my living situation is up. I have about 60 days to move. Since my lease is over, and my parents are departing for Detroit, forcibly, I'm on my own again, with no fall back. Knowing just HOW little money I make at M'tards, its not a simple subject.
Anyhow. I'm still here. Just seeing if the RSS is still posting out there. Look for some more soon!
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
A Few Things From The Past Year
I thought I’d show off some more of the images I’ve taken over the past year. Here is a brief selection. I’m also testing out the ability to do prints from it, with a freaking cool web company. Go Fotomoto ! So unless you view my Facebook or Twitter streams, this should all be new…
Anyhow, here’s a few of them, possibly to add more later.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Balls to the Wall…. Drug.
So without taking too much time to go over why I’m here [yet]; I’m sitting in a cheapo, nondescript motel in Wall, South Dakota. I spent most of the last two days on the road, looking at the countryside, trying to find radio stations, and thinking. I’ve needed some time to be alone with my thoughts the past few months. My blog has taken the punishment. I apologize, blog. And the 2 readers I think you still have with you.
But I’m here. In a town with a population of 810. I think, I could stay here, if it didn’t get busy like it does…. Sturgeous and Badlands National Park bring crazy amounts of people here in the summer. Now? Now, I’m about 1 of 6 cars in this whole village, that isn’t from here.
Badlands National Park became my battle cry the past few days. To get here. To hike it, to camp in it, and to photograph it. I will fail at one and a half of those attempts. But. Considering I never told a soul where I was going, it’s ended up just as well. Except the temperature drop. Except the rain. Except that I didn’t bring all of my glass with. Aside from that; I offer simple proof of my existence. Me over the mountains of wet, shit, I climbed today. Metaphorically, I’m not sure the mountain amounts to a hill of beans for me, but its been cathartic.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Why Internet Dating Isn’t Working Out
If internet dating was a business, with would be the government subsidized, maximum benefit receiving, zero profit, kind of thing we read about in the paper that soak up tax dollars, and do literally nothing but fuzzy, feel good shit.
Its welfare, in a special line item appropriation, extended to half black-half asian, twin, teenage pregnant mothers that speak only Ugandan or Bengali, and can’t recognize shapes because of an intense lack of education by ruthless male figures in their home country. Internet dating really just jabs its hooks into the downtrodden, the less fortunate, and the never-will’s, to pump up hope. Hope comes at the cost of everyone else.
My point is, that one solid month back into the internet dating realm, across 3 sites mind you, I have zero replies. On one site alone I’ve lit off 58 messages. Nothing. Its false hope. Of all the women I’ve seen online, let alone looked at more than twice, and bothered to read a profile; maybe 10% are attractive to me. Which, honestly means there are about 10 to 40 out there. From Minnesota to Missouri. That’s not helping to do much else than give false hope. Especially when none of them answer you. Its frustrating. Imagine walking around a party where people are talking and being introduced; and after a night of 58 attempts; not one person says “hello” back to you. How disrespectful is that? How is this any different, I might ask?
I can tell you how its NOT any different. These are not random social networking sites, where I’m hammering away trying to find a skank. These are dating sites. Populated by adults, that "opt in” to the service. You would think that people going to these sites, who spend time making profiles, would probably want to converse and meet people. I guess its not about that. So why would you go to a social gathering, and not be social and introduce yourself, or try to meet people? I would stay at home. But I’m cruising these sites because I want that moment in my mind, where I probably aren’t alone in this world, and maybe it is a couple of mouse clicks off.
There are only two reasons women are even on these things. First and foremost,I think, that most of these dating sites are really just ways for women to pound their own ego higher. Judging by the information changes, it looks like 10-15% are people in relationships that aren’t swinging. So the max actual crowd to pick from drops to 85% of what you think it is. That’s nice. Again, why join a site like that? Next, I’d say 20 to 30% are listed as bisexual. Which means what? Because by the time you are pushing 30; and you haven’t figured out your own orientation, you might not be ready for a relationship. Pool size drops to 65% of expected size. Next, you figure in the number of smoking hot women, that have no intention of anything other than giving some dork an erection. Call her “viagra,” but that on purpose. Knock it back 10% more. Now we are at the real pool. Half the size you think it is.
This brings in the second reason women on these sites. By and large, they are damaged goods, unattractive, or unwilling to find a date in the real world. Seriously. Lets not count the small group like me for now, stick with it. If they are attractive, and normal, and even venture outside once per day; men will find them. Bees and honey. Shit and flies. Ice and water. You can’t hardly get one with out the other. But they aren’t. Damaged goods is a big class, but refine it to say: emotionally incompatible, incomplete acceptance of past misgivings, or burdened by life circumstances. All of it is the same category. In the month I’ve been hitting this hard, its most of what I see in “real” women out there. These are women that can’t do a conventional relationship… they are too domineering or masochistic. They do not give and take in a natural way. They focus or obsess to unfair levels about potential mates, or are just plain chock full of “father figure issues,” that aren’t fair for anyone to deal with. Not only that, this is the group that probably had a kid [or several] at 20, which didn’t turn out so great. Maybe they smoke crack still. Who f’ing cares. Its all the same. Defect on arrival. Send it back. Not only that, we get the girls that self-assuredly, can’t make it work in the normal world of dating. So they put up out of focus pictures, pictures in costumes, pictures of friends, or non-personable shit as self portraits. Anything but let the internet public see them for what they are. Lastly, we have the ones that just are unwilling to settle for what is around them. They are the best case scenario of all.
I count myself, of sorts for comparisons sake, in the last line. I get it. I’m no male model. I don’t have 6 pack abs, or gloss myself with nicknames. I’m largely a bust by age 30. I couldn’t make a regular relationship last more than 4 months on my own, and I haven’t found one female, in my life [including my own mother for shit’s sake], that genuinely enjoys spending time with me. I know I’m a loser in the real world. So, like me, these girls are looking on the internet. But not looking at the same time. Frustrating for sure. Not looking? Well no one else seems to be interested in a guy, that’s titling messages “just looking to meet people.” Not, fuck me in the broom closet like a hooker. Not, marry me the minute you meet me. Not, I want to knock you around to show you how I love you. Just looks to meet people. I ask about their interests; if they say something funny, I mention that. I compliment their pictures if they look good, and I relate to hobbies and interests that are common.
Its unfortunate. Not only am I pathetic in the real dating world, I’m flaming out fast in the fake world of internet dating. But, its a last ditch effort. For months I’ve been serious about needing a real chance at a relationship. Not a given, guaranteed thing. But I need a fucking chance. I think I deserve it. The fickle mob, that is my judge, denies me that, and bail.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
the return of RONRON !!
Former alderman arrested on gun charge
available online Qctimes.com
by Kurt Allemeier
A former Davenport alderman who served a troubled tenure on the city council has been charged with being a felon in possession of a firearm.
Ronald Van Fossen, 67, of 4523 S. Concord St., was charged Thursday stemming from an incident earlier in the week. He is scheduled to appear in court next on Aug. 27.
Van Fossen served one term on the council, from 2006-2008, marred by arrests for domestic abuse, a stint in alcohol rehabilitation and a sexual harassment lawsuit by a city employee that resulted in a $92,000 settlement.
It was a 2007 conviction for domestic abuse that led to the firearm charge, a court affidavit states.
Davenport police investigating his vehicle being stolen recovered it Saturday in the 2200 block of East 12th Street and found a handgun inside, the affidavit says. The next day, officers asked Van Fossen whether he owned the handgun. Van Fossen said he did.
Van Fossen appeared in court Friday. He was not booked into the Scott County Jail.
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RonRon, I have missed you. You and your stupid antics are what this town needs again. Get your ride ganked. Leave your gat in the front seat, and let the police find it down around 12th street. Lets see if that makes news. Bitchin' RonRon is back baby!
Monday, June 07, 2010
So Where Have I Been?
Its a fair question. I tend to run away. The hardest part about having a long term commitment with my blog. Much like a mate, my blog and I have had moments where we separate and come back together again. I think… think, that this is the initial “get back together” awkwardness that symbolizes the reconciliation. So a brief explanation of the past few weeks…
Well going back to April. The “me” part of the relationship was true this time, when I say, its not you; blog, its me. Keeping a personal narrative short, I found out that I’m diabetic. Among other things. While being diabetic itself isn’t much of anything [18 million Americans plus are diagnosed, with nearly 60 million in a pre-diabetic state], its the rest of my life, is diabetes. Confused? Its not something you take a pill for, and poof, a month later its done. Its something I can’t forget about. I’m also under going other tests at this point for other things. Here again, the point really is; I’m getting old. Period. I need to come to the understanding that I won’t live forever. Instead, mortality lies ahead of us at every turn.
Aside from that. I spent some time alone, outside of the digital world. I’ve been drifting around the swirls of my own imagination. Translate that to mean more photography and more writing. Not that either are particularly good; but I’ve made an effort to do more of it. It seems like I’ve had to spend more time focusing on my physical state, knowing that, I know I need to focus more on my mental state. Expressing things on paper and in print helps. The frustration and the underlying uncertainty of life ahead is as helpful to the process as anything else could be. Maybe more on that later. I’ve been told I should push for a Lulu.com release. Maybe.
As far as the rest of my life; its consumed with working, and hiding from the fear of myself. I’ve even avoided consuming media as much as I had been accustomed to. Netflix is happy with this decision, as are the 5 news blogs, and 6 podcasts I subscribe to. As for now, I think I’m willing to take the “pause button” off for a while. Maybe get back to a state of normalcy, if I can.
Monday, March 22, 2010
to be the best, you gotta eat the rest.
Woman aims to become world's fattest
by ninemsn staff [available online via MSN, March 15 2010]
An obese mother in the US is trying to put on weight in order to become the world's fattest woman.
Donna Simpson, from New Jersey, weighs 273kg but told the Daily Mail newspaper she had her heart set on reaching her goal weight of 1000lb (450kg) in two years.
The 42-year-old already holds the title of the world's fattest mother after giving birth to her daughter in 2007 when she weighed 241kg.
"I'd love to be 1000lb ... it might be hard though, running after my daughter keeps my weight down," Ms Simpson told the Daily Mail.
Ms Simpson, who needs a mobility scooter to go shopping, eats huge amounts of junk food each week and tries to move as little as possible so she doesn't burn off as many calories.
"I do love cakes and sweet things, doughnuts are my favourite," she said.
Ms Simpson said she also loved eating sushi and would often eat 70 big pieces in one go.
Her 49-year-old partner Philippe — who she met on a dating site for plus-size people — was encouraging her to reach her goal, she said.
"I think he'd like it if I was bigger ... he's a real belly man and completely supports me," she said.
To put on enough weight, Ms Simpson will need to eat 12,000 calories a day, which is six times the recommended daily intake for women.
In order to pay for the enormous amounts of food she is eating — her weekly grocery bill is $815 — Ms Simpson makes money by running a website where men pay to watch her consume fast food.
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this is soooo full of goodness. i cant focus.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Pappa's Got A Brand New Zombie!
James Brown's body is 'missing from its crypt', alleges singer's daughter
by Daily Mail Reporter [available online: Daily Mail, March 12 2010]James Brown's daughter has claimed the singer's body has gone missing from its crypt.
LaRhonda Pettit, 48, alleges the body of Brown, who died in December 2006 aged 73, is being hidden to prevent a full autopsy being carried out.
Ms Pettit said the official cause of death, which was said to be a heart attack brought by pneumonia, is not the real reason behind the Godfather of Soul's passing.
Ms Pettit, who underwent a DNA test in 2007 to prove she was Brown's daughter, believes there were several people involved in Brown's death.
She said: 'My daddy's body has disappeared. I have no clue where it was taken, but I need to know where.
'I'm convinced his death was suspicious and I want the people responsible brought to justice.
'The only way to do that is to exhume his body and have an autopsy. I cannot understand why one was never conducted.'
She added to America's Globe newspaper: 'It was common knowledge that my daddy took illegal drugs.
'He was also hooked on various prescription painkillers. At the very least there were enablers who helped cause his death.'
Ms Pettit, who is 99.99 per cent likely to be Brown's daughter, said the singer had a relationship with her mother after meeting her at one of his performances in the 1960s.
She is one of 12 people who came forward following Brown's death claiming to be one of his illegitimate children.
Brown's body is said to have been sealed in a temporary crypt at his daughter Deanna's South Carolina Home while arrangements are made for his permanent burial.--------------------------------------------------------
While the fact that James Brown is a zombie, is not news; it IS however newsworthy that Zombie James Brown is, for lack of a logical reason, out on a zombie binge and can not be caught dead... ALIVE in his temporary crypt. Which is at his daughters home. Thats been there since 2006. Begging the question, what really is temporary anymore? Not even death. Not when you are Zombie James Brown, and you feel GOOD!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Last Day
waiting atleast 20 mins for my connection flight to Moline. Something
er other about crew members flights being delayed, delaying the flight
docked in our gate, meanin we can't dock and load. Sigh.
Last Day
pathetic. I thought these things could fly, and here we are rolling
around at ghetto block cruiser limp speed. Sigh. Only one flight
left... To the Mo-line.



